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sudden_serenityBeltane has come and gone. I was lucky enough to spend it with my parents who are both in their 70s with all the health complications that come with it. They had no idea that I was celebrating - to them it must have looked a lot like me being happy to spend time with them (which I was of course), but I was also noticing the trees and the new blooms and the birds so busy with their chicks and eggs and nests. It's been so cold this year that everything has been a little delayed but even though we could not notice the changes in the light and the temperature, nature knows and responds accordingly.
I have been having a bad day today. Slept poorly. Woke to threatening emails from hackers. I have been loosing weight with Noom and I read my lessons each morning before I start work for the day. Some days the jargon is so dense that I can't get what they are talking about - it's written by Americans for American and being a Brit I just don't 'get' it sometimes and not understanding the questions makes it hard to write insightful reponses...
Anyway. Bad day.
I was rushing to get to my desk to work, tidying up quickly, putting on a load of washing and getting myself a coffee when I went to put out the laundry on the line... and I paused... and I breathed... and I found a moment to be grateful. It is too easy to fall into the busy trap - too busy with being busy! I hung up our clean damp washing with the wind tugging it on the line and the sun already warm on my back and on the fabric and I just did that. No to do list, no what next, no I wonder - I pegged clean clothes to dry in the sun and that was all I did other than be grateful to the sun and the earth and the wind for helping me in this tiny way.
It didn't turn my day around - it was still full and I was still clumsy and stressed but it did give me a spoonful of perspective, a quiet moment with myself for gratitude and being open to the experiences of my day.
I will continue to watch for these moments and treasure them when they come. I enjoy mindfulness but a moment that you have curated yourself and discovered among the mundane things is equally if not more rewarding.
I have been having a bad day today. Slept poorly. Woke to threatening emails from hackers. I have been loosing weight with Noom and I read my lessons each morning before I start work for the day. Some days the jargon is so dense that I can't get what they are talking about - it's written by Americans for American and being a Brit I just don't 'get' it sometimes and not understanding the questions makes it hard to write insightful reponses...
Anyway. Bad day.
I was rushing to get to my desk to work, tidying up quickly, putting on a load of washing and getting myself a coffee when I went to put out the laundry on the line... and I paused... and I breathed... and I found a moment to be grateful. It is too easy to fall into the busy trap - too busy with being busy! I hung up our clean damp washing with the wind tugging it on the line and the sun already warm on my back and on the fabric and I just did that. No to do list, no what next, no I wonder - I pegged clean clothes to dry in the sun and that was all I did other than be grateful to the sun and the earth and the wind for helping me in this tiny way.
It didn't turn my day around - it was still full and I was still clumsy and stressed but it did give me a spoonful of perspective, a quiet moment with myself for gratitude and being open to the experiences of my day.
I will continue to watch for these moments and treasure them when they come. I enjoy mindfulness but a moment that you have curated yourself and discovered among the mundane things is equally if not more rewarding.
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